Thoughts

“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side as long as you are true to the best that is in you.”

Christian D Larson

Welcome to the core of my being. My thoughts go on their own journey through life, and I have a fun time observing and listening to them. I hope you find them as hilarious as I do, as freaking genius as I do, and as insightful as I do.

Sad and Angry, with Love

One of my favorite things I’ve learned about myself within the past couple of years is how much I learn from being sad and angry.  These were two emotions I suppressed for so long because I had a negative connotation of what these emotions meant and how to navigate them. I was hesitant to show…

Making it Happen

It may be a little silly, but AHHHHHHHH!!!!! I AM OFFICIALLY SCUBA CERTIFIED!!! I can dive anywhere and everywhere, baby! 18 meters deep, you gon find Mermaid Mal, you know what I’m saying? Makin friends with the fish, you feel me?  This is something I’ve dreamt about since I was in high school. It was…

2022 Book Review

Reading feels like two completely different things. When you’re being demanded to read books that you have little to no interest in for school, vs. when you’re picking your topics and stories of choice to read. Over the course of the past 5 years I’ve devolved a new sense of reading that has created a…

Things that Make Me Feel Better

The other day I was sad and made a list of all of the things that were making me feel better in that moment.  I get that sounds really cliche, but it was actually hilarious. I found myself writing these items down with tears pouring down my face – yet laughing at how stupid some…

Glib Blabber Mouths

The excitement that soars through my body when I get a notification that the book I’ve been long awaiting for is finally off hold and patiently waiting for me to indulge in, is cloying. That’s exactly what happened yesterday when the much anticipated Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo became available to me. I’ve been waiting…

The Suffering of Worry

**this was written in 2018** “Worrying means you suffer twice.” Read it again. “Worrying means you suffer twice.” If something is going to happen – it’s going to happen. So let it happen when it happens. There is absolutely no reason to worry your entire day away about your roommate burning down the house while…

See You on the Pod

**this was written in 2020 to introduce my podcast (which is now 2 years old)** I’ve been a hot mess the past couple of years. I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I’m not working in a field that I feel is contributing to my bigger purpose in life. I’m constantly…

Just Ride

Do you remember riding in the car as a kid and not knowing where you were going? There was an unappreciated bliss of how irrelevant I was when running errands with my mom. A bliss I haven’t felt in years – hopping in the car, no care in the world for how long we were…

Dramatic Lack of Love

I saw a lot of people celebrating America this past weekend and while I have respect for expressing pride towards things you’re excited, and honored to be apart of – I could not even bring myself to say, “Happy 4th,” to anyone. Given the circumstances of the past few years, it felt pretty lame to…

Timing is Underrated

I was thinking about this while playing pin ball in Portland the other night. (I forgot how much I love this game, by the way). Some would say it’s a game of luck and the ball will take you wherever it wants to go on its time. Which I can’t disagree with. The ball does…

August 19, 2021

I’m torn between wanting to acknowledge this day for someone who ALWAYS deserves acknowledging, and not wanting to celebrate the day someone so dear was aggressively torn away from everyone they love. But is that selfish of me? To not want to acknowledge the day that someone else took the life of our loved one?…

What am I going to do with my life?

What am I going to do with my life? A question many of us ask ourselves on a daily basis.A question some of us have had answered since we were young. A question that seems to follow us relentlessly as though an answer even exists. I’m guilty of antagonizing myself to get a clear answer…

Happy New Year!

Hi guys, Happy 2021! I’m sorry I haven’t written in a bit. I’ve actually been working on some other fun projects that have me expressing my emotions and thoughts in new ways. All of which I’m excited to share as they come to fruition! Before I tell you some exciting news, I want to give…

Dirty Politics

I’m not one to talk about politics. EVER. It does nothing but infuriate me. It gets me worked up because I don’t understand how having common sense to do what’s best for ALL people is just completely disregarded. How can you govern people and not do what’s best for them?! People say, “well, you can’t…

Cancel Trolls Gone Wild

**This was written sometime in 2020**You know how I’ve always wanted my own show? How I’ve always loved writing in my blog and sharing more opinions and random thoughts that I have going throughout my head? I now find myself hesitant to both of these things because the world is extremely sensitive, literal, and quick…

How You Live Your Life, Is A Choice.

One thing that has really been on my mind lately is active mindfulness. Knowing you are in control of your life and doing what it takes to enjoy it as best you can. I don’t know what this life means, what happens next, or how we got here – but I do know that I…

Ethereal Love

I expect love to always feel like love with the person I end up with. Is this a flaw? Is it unrealistic to have the expectation that someone can continue to give me butterflies after the honeymoon phase? Am I being way too optimistic that someone who makes my heart feel abundantly whole for the…

A Reflection: Gaining Control of My Emotions

I’ve always hated seeing people weep of heartbreak. It’s like my heart automatically tumbles and weeps with them, leaving me with a heavy throat and lost words. Seeing the people you love so hurt makes you feel helpless, because you know in that very moment nothing can take away that type of pain. The morning…

Trees Over Graves

Hello there,Just here to state why I believe planting trees in memorial of someone’s death, is a much more beneficial and sustainable alternative for installing gravestones. First, we would be introducing new life into this world, symbolizing rebirth. Once we die, our bodies deteriorate and decompose into the earth. Our remains then become apart of…

Time for Change.

Hi guys. I’m not one to throw out my opinions on politics and our government simply because people are too sensitive to have an educated conversation about any particular topic. Instead of hearing each other out, we automatically start defending our beliefs and turn what could be a great conversation between two people discussing changes…

The War Against Reality

Picture this: It’s a quiet Sunday morning. You wake up feeling refreshed and at peace. You grab your morning fix, whether that’s water, tea, coffee, etc., and you hop in the car for some Sunday morning exploring. The sky is exceptionally blue with minimal clouds. The clouds that you do see are incredibly white and…

Comfortably Uncomfortable

Is chasing a far fetched dream worth being away from the best people in my life? Do I have enough knowledge and experience to make beneficial decisions? How do I get myself on track when I don’t even know what path I want to take? How do I believe everything’s going to be okay when…

My Doodles

One of the things I like to do in my free time, when I’m feeling inspired, or when I don’t know how to express a recent emotion or thought that I have been dealing with, is doodle. (Sorry that sentence was so drawn out, but as of right now after re-reading it, I still think…

Self Care 101 – The List

I’m 22. It’s an odd age because I have just finished college and entered the real world and even though I have a degree, I still had and have a long journey of figuring out what I want to do, but even more important how I’m going to do it.  Since I’ve been on my…

Accomplished Exhaustion

Guys. I am EXHAUSTED.  Yesterday I definitely thought I was going to die of exhaustion, I have barely slept, my schedules are crazy and on top of that I can feel little germs trying to invade my blood and my nostril tubes and get me sick and I DO NOT HAVE TIME FOR GERMS RIGHT…

The Beautiful Unknown

Life in LA consists of uncertainty, uneasy nerves… the life of not knowing what’s next.  I will be honest, I have no idea what I am doing with my life right now. There are so many directions I want to explore and learn about – I am lost on where to even start.  Last night…

The Journey of Finding Yourself

This has been the hardest journey of my life – finding myself. I tried multiple things to see who I wanted to be in life (some good, some bad), before I realized – I just want to be me. I moved away. I traveled. I tried new things. I didn’t try new things. I joined…

The Adventure of Falling in Love

I fell in love for the first time. It tore me apart and lifted me up. It crushed my heart into pieces and then mended it back together. It turned me into a person I never was before, and brought me to the person I’ve always wanted to be. It brought upon the death of…

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