Softy

I wanted to change up the tone of this blog a bit because I feel like my writing has consisted a lot of serious, “me in my feels,” type of posts and that’s truly not how I am what-so-ever. BUT, I realized I do have that little soft side of me and I only really express that in my writing so I’m just gonna keep doing me, you feel? 

So, with that being said – embrace the vulnerable side of Mallory because she’s a rare species. 

I used to be scared of my soft side because I never wanted to come off as weak, and it still effects me now. However, the difference is that now I realize sometimes I just need to get into my head and figure out what’s going on and let myself think with emotions. I never let myself have feelings and it’s something that I am attempting to do for myself, even if it’s just once a week. 

I have found that allowing myself to get emotional helps me realize what I want and don’t want in life. It also helps me realize what genuinely makes me happy. 

I constantly fight my feelings because my brain says, “nah, Mallory you aren’t trying to get into all of that right now… be smart,” which my brain is right the majority of the time, don’t get me wrong. However, I don’t want to miss out on great aspects of life because I’m too scared to get into my feels. So, this is why I’m writing more, even if it’s way too soft for me, it helps me find that inner Mallory that isn’t always laughing at every little thing and helps me feel what my heart wants instead of my brain. 

That’s also the reason why I never post about these blog posts because I just don’t know if I’m ready for the people to read it just yet. HAHA. If you are reading this… keep yo mouth shut don’t let the people know I’m a softy. 

Thanks for reading.

-Mallory-