Life in LA consists of uncertainty, uneasy nerves… the life of not knowing what’s next.
I will be honest, I have no idea what I am doing with my life right now. There are so many directions I want to explore and learn about – I am lost on where to even start.
Last night I had the opportunity to attend the AARP Movies for Grownups Awards – which hosted nominees like Get Out, Lady Bird, Star Wars: The Last Jedi, and many, many more.
I was sitting in a room full of some of the most creative minds in the filmmaking industry and not once did I feel like a spec of dust. I sat among successful screenwriters, actresses, actors, directors and producers and NOT ONCE did I feel like I didn’t belong, or that I wasn’t good enough. I felt like I was apart of something bigger – I felt apart of creation, individualism, acceptance and connection.
No. I have no idea what I’m doing or how I’m going to get to where I want to be. BUT – I do know that I’m going to do something. I don’t know what it is or how I’m going to do it, but I am SO excited to see where I’ll end up, but most importantly, I’m even more excited to enjoy this journey.
Last night, I had an experience that changed my viewpoint on everything going on in my life currently. This journey is so uncertain – but that’s the beauty about it. Yesterday morning I had no idea what I was going to do for my Monday, then I ended up sitting at an award show next to people I look up to. People I have DREAMT about hearing advice from, their stories, etc., and I was given that experience in less than a 12-hour notice.
So, I have accepted that the negative aspects of this journey, are some of the most beautiful parts of the ride. The unknown is amazing because it just means I have so many opportunities that can come my way. Not knowing what’s coming next just means that ANYTHING can come next.
This industry has plenty of insincere people and that has been something that has been extremely hard for me to grasp. Last night I realized how true that is – but how it just makes genuine people stick out THAT MUCH MORE. To me, that’s a beautiful thing.
So, here’s an update on my life. For those of you wondering – no, I still don’t know what I’m doing as there are many directions to go, but I’m figuring it out step-by-step.
Here’s a little picture of a montage of positivity I put together last night after the show. I sat down and doodled what came to my mind at that moment. It hasn’t been the easiest transition, but I am so happy with the direction my life is going and I am so excited to share it with everyone in my life.
I hope my doodles can remind you of beautiful things in life when it seems extra ugly.
Cheers, to a beautiful life ❤
-Mallory-
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